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Mike and another volunteer are upgrading a lot of firmware, hardware, software and maybe Tupperware at KPTZ's new (but still not entirely functioning) broadcast studios tonight. Which means the FM broadcast is off the air (streaming is still happening).
I've had a ton of evenings alone in the past month or so, mostly at my sister's house while she was in the hospital. When she got home, we had some quality evening time in her den (aka the guestroom) which was absolutely precious. We get closer as we age. It's a good thing. Bad thing is the 3k miles distance. Yet phones, IM, and FB messages, right? We are in touch routinely, which I adore.
But all alone tonight. Had a small serving of spaghetti with a large serving of Parmigiano Reggiano because don't judge my cheese habits! Got the dogs out for their last pee before midnight (though I had to dawdle to peer at the stars, which were not only many but crystal clear) and put them to bed. Cleaned up the kitchen. Sitting here listening to KEXPs Jazz Theatre show, which is wonderfully moody. Feeling rather not moody tonight, and that might be the cocktail from much earlier, or the last bit of red wine (pint box, most used for a beef stew) from just now.
I wish to wake tomorrow without expectations and burdens, emotional and physical. Resentments soothed. Willing and able to wield some garden tools. Looking to tweak the psyche back to enjoyment, rather than trying to withstand the onslaught of dread. Keep looking for a therapist. Maybe with an actual plan for activities.
And with that guy in my bed.